I’m a woman, single, never married, 39…a mother, daughter, sister, dreamer, believer, runner, reader, an artist..I am independent to a fault, but wish I could find someone to depend on, yet push people away. I’m stubborn as heck, I cry most -when I’m disappointed in myself.  I seriously have an organization/mess problem.I’m an unorganized ((wannabe neat freak)) that is always making a mess. This is NOT a good character trait! I wish I was a Super Duper neat freak and could actually stay on top of it all! Messes make me feel out of control and it affects my mood. I guess I’ll never be one of those Type A neat freak people (as much as I may want to be!!!). I’m gonna find a balance ~ A balance between being sane and keeping everything in the order.

I am intelligent but naive,   I’m alway ((strong)) on the outside –regardless of how I feel on the inside. I know what it’s like to be so mad you go into blind rage. I know heartbreak. I know pain. I know love. …  I get jealous,  I wanna be better at yogo and meditation but have problems keeping still . I have multiply unfinished task that I’m working on.  I love learning but start too many– without finishing the other~~ which leads to none of them being completed. . I’ve made mistakes but have learned from them and moved on.  I’m very independent and more of a loner than a follower. A rambler … Let me wrap this up ..

I AM confused..but if you saw me you’d think I have it all together. I don’t AND cannot but long for that moment.That  rush, that feeling.That feeling of transcendence, that moment of  clarity. That instance  when simplicity takes over. The moment it will  all come together like  the final clash of the cymbals.

That instance when my heart, overflowing calls out to my mind and I KNOW that THIS is it.